Corona 15 + Other Quarantine Struggles

So it’s been almost 2 months since school was cancelled. The first month was great; I had no work and could explore hobbies all day (or just lie in bed and watch youtube). I had a lot of ambitions:

1. blog every day (update: FAIL)

2. start an actual business (status: NON EXISTENT)

3. study for the SAT (complete fail: I have not spent one-second studying. I have only amassed a tower of my sister’s old SAT books the size of Mount Everest. This is why my room looks like a pile of junk)

4. Get Buff (ummm… ya no. My body fat percentage has skyrocketed.)

5. Create an App/ Learn to Code (also a fail… I watched 2 videos about coding and then stopped)

6. Start a Garden (finally something I haven’t failed at 🙂 I actually did this and it is thriving)

7. Learn to Sew (a work in progress… it is very frustrating)

So you might be wondering, “Anya, if you haven’t completed 90% of your goals, what have you been doing all this time????”

Well, I baked a lot. Hours of spilling flour and whisking batter has mad me fatter. Did you see that rhyming I did there? I’m so proud. I am the next Dr.Seuss. I have gained 10 pounds and am now currently trying to get rid of that extra poundage. Unfortunately, I think my hip is injured now, from increasing running milage too quickly.

I had an ASB interview. Now I am getting PTSD. That went okay but not well , which sucks because I really wanted to be Commissioner of Outreach (the position I applied for). I hope I got the job, but I haven’t heard back. Or maybe they emailed me and I accidentally deleted it. Oh god, I hope not.

Writing this is making me question the meaning of this blog. Do people even read blogs anymore? I think not. Especially ones that are broken and managed by a 14 year old who has posted once and doesn’t know how to use WordPress. I would use Wix or some other web hosting but they’re so damn expensive. Anyways if someone is reading this who isn’t related to me , comment if you can.

I also have a doctors appointment next month. Why God???

I have an essay due in 2 days that I’ve barely started, a ton of math assignments I don’t unsterstand, and a lot more. I’m so DAMN LAZY!!

is damn a bad word? idk. It seems appropriate is that context

Sooooooooo, I am going to start a challenge called

GET OFF YOUR A** YOU LAZY PIECE OF SH*T #$%^&^T!TU#!!

Sorry I just felt like saying that. I don’t use naughty words in real life, but shall I start?

You know this is fun to just write random sh*t. Wow that work is handy, but I’m too PG.

If someone is reading this:

yay! someone cares about what I have to say for once in my life! (I know reading this doesn’t mean you care but I like to think it does)

or

UH OHH… if you are someone I know in real life because this is embarrassing

Anyways, I hope this inspired you (who the f#%^ am I talking 2?) because I enjoyed writing it. Why would this inspire you? I was literally just complaining about my incompetence.

Anyways I love saying anyways!!!! It’s just such a great word that gets you back on topic and distracts from embarrassing situations.

ANYWAYS, peace out.

Sorry, I’m not actually gone yet. In all seriousness, I am going to just “start DOING IT!!” so I can finally be the person I want to be, and I encourage you to too. How do people even find blogs?

This is me. I hype myself up in my brain and then realize my true worth: everything

I just need to get started and then not stop.

I should have more faith and self confidence.

I will not be one of those lazy people who successful people look down on!

YASSSS

Stop lying to yourself.

Satisfaction in feeling accomplished and like you did something. That satisfaction that makes you get up the next day excited to work harder. THAT is what I want.